I’ve struggled with my weight since … well, I honestly don’t remember a time I didn’t feel self-conscious about my body. And that self-consciousness is heightened by my slight social anxiety when I go to gyms. A new place. Other people. Not doing something right. I get myself worked up. Literally clammy palms nervous. Who does that? Me. That's who.
I’ve never found a place that I feel absolutely comfortable working out. Like, the going hard and looking sweaty and ridiculous kind of workout. I've tried the at-home route. Insanity with Shaun T videos ... the DailyBurn ... I'll get in a routine and if I skip ONE day … I’m done.
I've always told myself 30 is my deadline. I really want to be in the best shape of my life by then. I want to be strong. And I only have a few more years to go. So, after a year of Grace asking me when I was going to join her for a class at Alchemy, I finally said yes. It may have been after a strong cocktail. But I didn’t want to back out.
I went. Grace showed me around before the class and so I felt less anxious. The class was insanely hard but I felt a huge sense of accomplishment when I was done. During the workout you go at your own pace, and it's crazy but I honestly forgot there were other people in the room with me. I was just focused on counting my reps, keeping good form and breathing.
After that workout, I toyed with the idea of joining Alchemy for days. Changing my mind by the hour. It's a financial investment so I would have to adjust my budget accordingly. And I thought to myself, maybe I'll start doing at-home videos again and THIS TIME I'll stick to it. Maybe. Ugh. Who am I kidding?
But it came down to this. I was afraid. Afraid to make the commitment. Afraid to work really hard. Afraid at the thought of possibly failing again. But here's the thing. Change doesn't come from being comfortable. Change comes from pushing your limits and being ok with discomfort.
So, I signed up. I'm doing it.
Do you get gym anxiety too? If you ever want to join me for a class or just want a tour of Alchemy, email me. I get one guest pass per month to share with my friends and I'd love to show you around. They also have intro classes with tours available to anyone. If you've been looking for a push to start working out or even get out of a workout rut, consider this that push.